It's a new year! Time for those
resolutions goals of mine. I've been hemming and hawing for almost a month... yet... I'm still several days into the year and unable to commit.
Part of that I blame on this latest round of "sick germs" to get me. I'm done with all the sickness and germs! I've had this thing for 18 days now. It started as a cold and then turned into bronchitis that morphed into a sinus thing... and now I'm just a beat-down lump on the couch. I'm painting a pretty picture, aren't I?! And in case you are wondering... I totally blame the kiddo who constantly has his hands all over everything, and then in his mouth. He's also the kiddo who puts everything in his mouth... fingers, toes (while biting his toenails, natch), the shoes on his feet, the goldfish on the floor of the mall, the pretzel piece he found in the Target shopping cart. Oh, and we can't forget every. single. toy. he. can. You get the picture. And no, it's not pretty.
While we are at it.... I have a question for you all. When out with a sick toddler, everyone is all "Poor baby!" and "How sad!" and lots of awwws and clucking noises and sympathetic glances follow. Then they look at me and say, with a touch of horror in their voice, "Oh god, you do NOT look good... what's wrong?!" Why can they not put one and one together?! Hi, this red-cheeked kiddo with snot all over him is why I look like this. And PS, we are in the middle of the drugstore. Did you expect everyone in here to be glowing with health in the middle of cold and flu season?!
OK. Rant over.
Onto the other reason I hesitated to hit publish ... I made the mistake of looking at my previous year's lists. Lists of hopes and goals. Lists of personal improvements. Uhm, funny that a few—ok, many—of the things on this year's list were also on the lists from years past. So that made me question... do I accept defeat in that area and move on? Or do I try again?
I do feel that being more mindful of areas where I struggle does actually help me improve on them... I have actually gotten better in most of the areas. Sometimes it's a very minute improvement, but it's a step in the right direction. And... I haven't failed across the board! I have actually come a long way in the kitchen and cooking. I have successfully completed several Project 365s. (I also feel like my photography has improved incredibly... but that may come across as patting myself on the back.) I have learned to step back and breathe before flying off the handle at my child(ren). (Not always... but they'd probably be stuck in a closet if I hadn't mastered this to some extent!) But let's face it. I have not mastered email management. I have not gotten as organized or de-cluttered as I would like. And I'm definitely not as connected as I want to be to the people who matter most.
But, I'm a work in progress.
So where does that leave me?! Well, I still want a list of hopes and goals for the new year. I most definitely missed having them last year. And I want to continue to be a work in progress. Why not?! That's kind of what life is... no?!
So, without further rambling on my part...
My 2015 List of Improvements
1. Work Less & Play More
No, I'm not saying that I'm not going to work anymore. (Unfortunately.) But I am going to strive to achieve a better work/life balance. This past fall, things hit bottom in terms of balance. I'd say there was absolutely no balance what-so-ever and it took a toll on us all. I don't ever want to be in that place again. I also want to strive for a better work/work balance. I want to carve out time for personal projects too. I really, really feel the need to nourish some personal projects that have been pinging around in my head for way too long now. The nature of my business is that when it hits, it hits hard. And that is just too draining. There is nothing left over for anything "else." I won't be taking every job that crosses my desk this year... I'll only take the ones that can feel good about at the end of the day.
2. Get Up & Get Fit
A couple of years ago, I decided that I wanted to run a half marathon. And... I did! Amazingly, I did. I ran several more races after that... but a harsh New England winter de-railed me and I never got back into the groove. Again. Then, Milo came home and there is no way I can actually push him and the jogging stroller without collapsing on the ground after a block. (No, really. I can't. I tried.) So... I'm taking the tortoise approach to this one. I've invested in a fit*bit and I'm going to focus on taking more steps a day. That's all. Just more steps. But... I think that if I can tackle that, other healthy habits may follow. I hope!
3. Clean More & Craft More
Yeah, I know, those two things don't really go together... But, they both make me happy. Really! I find both of them raise my spirits and work off any stress or anxiety that might be buzzing around in my head.
While I don't always enjoy the act of cleaning (I mean, c'mon... who enjoys cleaning the toilet?!) ... I really, really enjoy the feeling of walking into a clean room. Even if it's the only one in the house. Years and years ago, I used the "flylady" method. To this day, I still use some of the habits I picked up from her. But sadly, I've dropped many. I'm going to get back on track this year.
And crafting. I know that some of you have your eyebrows raised and are thinking, "You craft plenty, my dear." (You may also think that maybe I should be crafting less and cleaning more. That's cool.) But, in actuality... I craft very little. Not as often as I would like. Between work and kids and life in general... there's just not much time left over. But I really do find it very relaxing. (And this article confirms that it's good for me too! Although I kind of already knew that.) I'm toying with a few ways to quantify this... but I'm not quite there yet. That's a post for another day.
And that's it. Nothing all that revolutionary or all that daring. (Although for me, "Work Less" will require a lot of bravery.) I think all of them are attainable. I think... I hope. You'll notice that I have not included some things here. I have not talked about getting control over my email inbox. I have not mentioned trying to figure out if I want to be on social media or not. I have not listed tackling the basement, de-cluttering, or organizing. While I would very much like to master all of those things... I'm not putting them here. I'll keep them in the back of my mind, and just try to be better at all of them. Maybe they'll get added on later this year... but for now, no. I need to mix it up and try some things that I haven't repeatedly "not succeeded" at.
The biggest change this year is that I don't plan on completing a Project 365. This last year was so incredibly hard to get through. And I think it shows in many of my photos. I crawled towards the end there... and I just don't want to put myself through it again. I already feel liberated and relieved. I may decide to do a Project 52 at some point... but the daily photos are taking a back seat for now. I still hope to push myself as a photographer, to be "better," but I'm not making any specific goals around that hope.
So there you have it. A very long, rambling post about what my goals are. Overall, I just want to end the year better than I started. Further along that path. A slightly more completed work in progress. That's not too much to ask, is it?!
I think it's going to be a good year. A better year. Maybe even a great year!
Have you made any goals/resolutions/lists of improvements this year?!