It's hard to believe we said Goodbye to Roxy a year ago today. As with all things important... it seems like it was so long ago, yet just yesterday. All at the same time. Some days the memories are so strong, I feel like it was all a bad dream and I'll find her sneaking up onto our bed. Other days, I'm angry with myself for not being able to recall certain details about her. I'm finally starting to find joy in the most bittersweet of memories. (And I'm finally finding joy in the occasional thunderstorm, no longer needing to worry about her distress.)
Yesterday, Spencer and I made a donation at our local Pet*co (which supports the local shelters) in her memory. There's a few other things I have planned, for when I'm a little less raw.
When we lost Roxy, a friend of mine from college reached out to me having recently gone through the same thing herself. She sent me this. It spoke to me, and I feel like it's the final chapter to Roxy's story.
The Last Battle
If it should be that I grow frail and weak And pain should keep me from my sleep, Then will you do what must be done, For this - - the last battle - - can't be won.
You will be sad I understand, But don't let grief then stay your hand, For on this day, more than the rest, Your love and friendship must stand the test.
We have had so many happy years, Through happiness, laughter, sadness and tears. You wouldn't want me to suffer so. When the time comes, please, let me go.
Take me to where to my needs they'll tend, Only stay with me until the end And hold me firm and speak to me Until my eyes no longer see.
I know in time you will agree It is a kindness you do to me. Although my tail its last has waved, From pain and suffering I have been saved.
Don't grieve that it must be you Who has decided this thing to do. We've been so close, we two, these years Don't let your heart hold any tears.
Roxy Doodles, The Doodle Dog, Roxy Roxy Doo... you are missed every. single. day.
For those of you who don't really "know" Roxy... you can read more about her here.