Scattered

{I apologize... this post has nothing to do with Spencer.} I find myself feeling very scattered these days. I'm not sure if that's really the term I should be using, but my mind, and my life is all over the place. (Not to mention the clutter that is scattered throughout this house.) I'm sure a lot of it has to do with our new we-live-here-and-he-works-there lifestyle and being in a constant state of limbo waiting-hoping-praying for this house to sell. I'm sure a lot of it has to do with friends getting the best possible news while others were getting the worst possible news. And I'm most definitely sure a lot of it has to do with a new set of challenges Spencer is presenting us with that leave me completely and totally exhausted at the end of the day. (OK, this post might have a *little* to do with Spencer.)

All of this leaves me feeling scattered. "Behind the eight ball" and "last minute" is the name of the game these days. (I've always been an 11th hour type of gal... but this is by far the worst it's been. Ever.) My to do list is as long as my arm and for every item I cross off, three more appear. In fact, my to do list is the only thing not scattered. Thank God.

Focus, I tell myself. Just breathe and FOCUS. (Easier said than done when in a scattered state.) Instead, it's much easier to check tw!tter and f@cebook. Escapism at it's finest people. Especially when there's a pile of dirty dishes that I'm intentionally not looking at. I guess I should be happy that they are piled up and not scattered throughout the house?!

So why am I blogging?! I . have . no . idea. Clearly, I need to go look at the to do list again... and reset my priorities. But for now?!

Complete and utter avoidance.